So I was listening to Snow Patrol’s new album before I went to watch this week’s Grey’s Anatomy (in bed, under layers of duvets and blankets like that would somehow alleviate the trauma), and there’s this track on the album called “This Isn’t Everything You Are”. Well, there’s this verse and chorus in the song that, well, kind of sums up this episode …
How could you know
That he’d slipped away last night
And you wish you went home, days ago
To say goodbye or just hello
Don’t keel over now
Don’t keel over
Don’t keel over now
Don’t keel overAnd in one little moment
It all implodes
This isn’t everything you are
Breathe deeply in the silence
No sudden moves
This isn’t everything you are
Just take the hand that’s offered
And hold on tight
This isn’t everything you are…
See, in my little fandom world in my head after the next episode airs, someone will make a fanvid using this song based on Teddy and the aftermath and her reaction to everything with lots of Henry/Teddy in flashbacks.
But anyway, I am getting ahead of myself …
I knew this was coming. I knew it a year ago when Shonda said in an interview that there was no real room for a non-doctor character in the show long-term so I was prepared. I was so prepared that I was 90% sure that the Season 7 finale was going to end with him dying or, at best, written out with the small hope of returning a later date.
Imagine my elation when the exact opposite happened. But through the joy I knew that I was setting myself up for heartbreak but it was TEDDY/HENRY!!!! How could I not make the most of this moment?!
And so this season I lapped up all the cuteness but IMPENDING DOOM was still hanging over it, only heightened by talk of Scott’s new show etc. Then last episode we get the ruse about him wanting to go to medical school and a very small part of me thought that maybe, maybe, this was TPTB’s way of keeping him around long-term.
And then the end of the episode happened and I knew what this episode would hold but still the way it went down with Cristina and Owen and the Chief and the lies ….. wow.
I want to hate this episode. I want to hate this episode because they killed off my favourite OTP and put one of my favourite characters into emotional turmoil but I can’t because it was pretty ingenious in its dark and twisty way.
The fact that there was another crisis going on that meant Teddy had to be in the OR instead of with her husband.
The fact that although we did get a semi-goodbye scene in CT (mirroring the first time he professed his love for her!) and a phone call, she wasn’t there in pre-op to actually have that final goodbye and be the worried wife she was earlier in the season. Guilt over not being there for him and guilt over the whole med school thing.
The fact that Teddy had unwavering faith in Cristina shows such a progression in their relationship as well.
The fact that Teddy was relatively upbeat (although worried) about Henry’s situation after his operation.
The fact that she was so focussed on the whole med school thing which is just so tragic.
The fact that they got Cristina to do the surgery without telling her who the patient was. This was just so ingenious – that scene where Owen tells her to go do the surgery and Cristina is being all arrogant and Cristina-like saying how Teddy was treating her like a valet and giving her all the rubbish easy surgeries and then again later after Henry died and she’s talking about how she hopes it doesn’t count towards a bad outcome on her score sheet because the guy had no hope and she doesn’t understand why Lexie, Chief and Owen are so upset (and you can’t even hate Cristina for it because it is so in tune with her character …. And yet you can’t help but hate her for being like that because you know the truth and the whole tragedy of it) ………………… and then that silent moment when Owen tells her who she’s just killed and her reaction which is just ……
The fact that after 2 seasons we finally got some Owen/Teddy friendship in some dark twisty way where Owen is trying to be there for her at the beginning and then caves to her request to get Cristina to do the surgery (even though he doesn’t want to because he knows if it goes badly it might break Cristina again and the Cristina/Teddy relationship and he doesn’t want his wife to be the one to kill his friend’s husband) and then he has to lie to Teddy about Henry still being alive – not just once! TWICE! And how he doesn’t want to do it but realises it was the only way. And I love Owen/Teddy and I semi-shipped them when everyone was hating on her for breaking up the Owen/Cristina and there I was in my shipper world enjoying all their moments even though I was sure that Owen would choose Cristina and Teddy would be all heartbroken. And now this angst!
(Sidenote: You know that final Owen/Teddy scene when Teddy asks him if Cristina got clear margins and Owen responds “oh yes” – did anyone else (in the UK) think he sounded awfully like the Churchill dog in the insurance adverts? Nope, just me? Okay, moving on …..)
So now not only do we have the fact that Henry is dead and have Teddy’s straightforward “my husband is dead” emotional fallout we have FALLOUT on four fronts: Teddy/Henry, Teddy/Owen, Teddy/Cristina, Owen/Cristina.
I am really interested to see how Teddy will react once she’s over the initial shock of Henry being dead. When she finds out that Henry’s artery was calcified and that either outcome would have ended up in his being dead, she might be able to accept the fact that Cristina and the Chief didn’t kill him and there was nothing they could have done (after some initial outbursts of misplaced anger perhaps). The Teddy/Owen thing is a harder thing for her to accept but eventually she will understand that too – he couldn’t have told her, she was arms deep in a patient but I think the fact that it was OWEN and not Bailey or Chief or Lexie that had to like to her will make her anger and resentment stronger.
*deep breath* Okay so other things which happened in this episode ….
– Cute Alex/Meredith/Cristina scene at the bar following on from the last episode.
– I can’t decide if I wanted Derek/Meredith to get Zola back or not. I wasn’t that attached to Zola as a kid but for some reason at the back of my mind I always kind of thought they would get her back after all the ~drama~ because if this is the last season with the old crew then it would be nice to focus on Meredith being a mother and juggling that with her job. Obviously this is Grey’s Anatomy so I should have known better. This way there is clearly more drama with the “do we get another kid or not” thing. So I hope that the Zola thing is finally dropped and we move onto that. The Meredith fallout was wonderful – that “cry” scene with Cristina was both heart-wrenching and funny and then the Derek/Meredith “I don’t want another baby” hug and the look on Derek’s face – he didn’t resent her for feeling that way, he understood. And the Derek/Cristina “it’s my fault” / “She’ll come around, she always does” scene.
– Mark’s whole “time share” Sofia thing. Hilarious! The one bit of humour in this episode and it made me smile because his logic is faultless. And the scene later on where Arizona’s like “why wouldn’t you want to parent Sofia?! Have you seen her? She’s heart-stoppingly adorable” to Derek.
– Henry/Lexie scene – weirdly cute and touching.
– The fact that Callie and Jackson screwed up (SCREWed up – gettit?!) was actually interesting. I mean obviously with everything else that was going on, it kind of got smothered, but in any other episode I would actually be vaguely interested to find out what they did to screw up and what their punishment will be.
And then we come to the Meredith/Alex ambulance thing. I LOVE MEREDITH/ALEX SCENES just in case I haven’t said that enough this season. The way Alex was trying to give Meredith hope, the way he took the blame for everything that happened with Zola and the way Meredith took responsibility “what you did was dirty but what I did was illegal” …… oh Alex/Meredith
And then when they were fighting over who should stay in the ambulance. Alex shouting at Meredith to get out! Meredith shouting at him to get out and telling him that he’s not going to alleviate his guilt by letting her let him die in an ambulance.
The slowmotion crash!
The scene back in the hospital when the phone went dead and the way Mark took charge and told Jackson to take over for Derek.
You’re all going to think I’m a horrible person for saying this but there was a point when I thought “why, why are you risking your whole life for a baby. A baby”. I mean if it was a kid or an adult then I could understand it more but all I could think of was that they were going through all of that risk for a baby that would probably not survive anyway and although the mother would be sad, it wouldn’t be AS tragic than if it was a 5 year-old kid on life support or something. Yes, I’m a horrible person but I think you were meant to question Alex/Meredith’s decision a bit – not only was it just the whole doctor thing “we can’t leave a baby to die whilst we save ourselves” but it’s because of Meredith and her whole baby drama and because of Alex and his whole Meredith drama.
I was ridiculously relieved when Meredith and Alex finally stepped out of the damn ambulance and even better – it didn’t even blow up the moment they were out as I expected. Then we saw the dead bodies which was weirdly horror-movie like. Of course I suppose in the next episode they will find one of the people are still alive and then one of them will go back into the ambulance to get supplies and then the ambulance will blow up because that is so Grey’s Anatomy ……
But still the big cliffhanger is not what will happen to Alex and Meredith and the baby and the dead bodies, it is how will Teddy react to the news that Cristina killed her husband and that Owen lied to her. That is what I am so incredibly invested in.